( farah kepo! )

): he said he is not sleeping, at last dier tido! hmph!
diam ah~

dont ask me why im not sleeping yet. ( i dont feel like sleeping ler. )
though, i am sleepy.
): k.

sometimes i feel like im living with only five person.
sometimes i feel like the family is missing one person. sometimes i feel like u're not part of the family becos u're not always at home.
2nd sister;adek. i love being with her, i love her presence.
i tend to check elder sisters' room to see if shes there lying down on her bed, sleeping.
but no, u're always not there.
u guys dont know how happy am i to see her at home.
u dont know how happy am i when she take me out, even if it is just to 7eleven. ( heh. )
u dont know how happy am i when i see her online.
i dont understand why work has to take her away from me, or maybe the whole family.
i dont understand why she enjoy staying at the other home than this lovely home.
how i wish sometimes she would know how i feel.
i miss her a lot. a lot, a lot. only God knows.
its weird that we live under the same roof, but we rarely get to see each other.


alrighty.
hopefully i can go meet susan tmrw and talk, talk, gossip, laugh, laugh.
cry also can ah.
cos tmrw no school! for me, that is.
biaser lah. buat holiday sendiri. :D